New owie. New resolve.

 October 29th

So, now my hip hurts.  Left hip, if ya wanna know.  Gonna talk with Doc Jorgenson tomorrow at my regular diabetic appointment, about my back.  I can't do the strengthening exercises without hurting myself.  And my elbow (also left) is being weird.  

Hopefully Dr J will have new input.  Been talking with John about possibly doing surgery on my back.  I've never really had surgery.  Kinda makes me nervous.  

This assortment of pain, is why I'm fat and diabetic.  If I didn't hurt, I'd do more.  If I did more, I'd by definition, use more calories.  That would help both the fat me and the diabetic me.  But it comes back down to pain.  

Other news, I made sausage, kinda.  I think there's too much garlic.  John thinks it's strong but ok.  Very much a personal taste thing.  Also, I think it's making me gassy!  LOL

I'm working on a set of overalls, to do a costume.  by Saturday.  with only friday left to work on it.  OOOPS

Seriously tempted to go up to Minneapolis to work on it today.  Be much less stressful, if that part of the costume was finished.

I think I'm gonna do that.  Costume here I come.  

Informational Thing

 October 25, 2020 (part 2)

I'm me.  Just that.  I don't do shame, either given or taken.  I'm 45.  I have diabetes, a bit of tachycardia (heart rate is usually 90's-100's), degenerating vertebrae in two spots (don't ask numbers, 'cuz I don't remember), Ehler's Danlos Syndrome (see link).  Also some damage to my shoulder from a dislocation.

I weigh about 190 pounds, give or take a pound or 5 any given week.  I'm also 5'2.75". I used to be 5'3".  I've SHRUNK!!!!

I try to walk a nice 3+ mile trek at least once a week, weather permitting.  

I LOVE food.

My doctor would love it if I could lose 10 pounds.  I'd love to, too.  I'd actually love to lose more like 30ish.  But... it hurts.  I take my walk, and then when I sit down after, the back damage hurts.  
It's very difficult to, I think the term is 'scale', enough to get effect, but not hurt.  

I keep resolving to walk more, do more lifting, you know... be 'better'.  I don't feel bad about not doing so much as...wish the results of doing it showed up faster, so that the resolution would be easier to hold to despite the pain. 

I hope this blog helps me to do that.  
I'll be putting up baseline pics soon.  YAY- Paulette in her undies.  

Done for now.  Two thumbs up for intent, right?

https://rarediseases.info.nih.gov/diseases/2081/hypermobile-ehlers-danlos-syndrome  

Musings on a cold October morning

 October 25th.

Kinda chilly, and might snow.  

My hangouts chat with John was hung up.  I did a restart and an airplane mode disconnect.  Not sure which one actually fixed it, but it's fixed now.

I have ZERO motivation to do any exercise.  I intellectually know I need to.  But it's cold outside, and just unpleasant.  

I don't eat as well, when John's not home.  I had a breakfast burrito and a protein shake for breakfast; a pb&j sandwich for lunch; and rice and a tamale and some chai for dinner.

I just have to keep trying.  Doing sorta better about testing my sugars.  But I think my meter needs a new battery.  It didn't send to my phone.  Hmm.  Just realized, that might have been a phone issue, not a meter issue.  Since the phone was misbehaving this morning.  

That's about it.  I might just go to the gym after work today.  Just to see if that can break me out of my exercise funk.  Maybe run on the treadmill a bit.  Haven't done treadmill in a long time.  

 Well, it's October 20, 2020

A lovely fall day, trying to be a miserable winter day, and succeeding admirably.  Already have a good inch plus of snow.  It's wet and heavy stuff, too.  

Not going home tonight.  Roads are too dangerous to do the 30 mile drive.  Gonna head to my parents' house.  Sigh.  

On the plus side, I do have clean undies in my gym bag.